The language of the heart is complicated.....

My heart has been challenged and my ego is bruised and love seems like something that is just out of reach.....So what is the reality of this perspective?  Well, love is that intangible energy that is always present in our hearts, that beautiful unconditional offering we give to family, friends and significant others until something happens that we feel is unforgivable.  Then we stop loving or so we think.  We actually stop sending out our conditional expectations and stop talking or take a break from connecting to the people that have hurt us or did not give us what we wanted or needed.  So where is the balance of finding those that will offer us what we need and moving away from those that are not able to give to us ? And how do we still love those who are not able to give us what we want and need and offer to those that can that beautiful effervescent love which resides in our beings and wants to be shared and reciprocated? I mean is there anything more beautiful than watching 2 people give and receive a loving touch or look??  I have tried to reach across the miles and connect to a heart that is closed to me and the sadness that the miles are not the issue but the devastation that resides behind walls of concrete surrounding this heart has brought me to a place of deep despair.  And if I could break down those walls I would and if I could bring peace to that soul I would......but I was not invited in behind those walls to help dismantle the pain and disillusionment that created them in the first place.  Instead I was kept outside as I tried to serenade and throw roses over the tall walls but the flowers simply fell at my feet and the song eventually faded and my voice became silent.  So walking away seemed the only choice and I have found that I am now on a path through the forest with many trees to find an easier road that leads to a garden to walk in and touch the heart of someone else that wants to walk next to me and pick some flowers for me and maybe sing me a song or two.  It is an interesting journey and the sadness is still fresh and tears still keep coming but I am facing the situation head on and braving the fog and stumbling as I navigate my heart in this new territory.  And there is a new soul that has embraced me and speaks sweet words to me and has an openness that is refreshing and feels like a healing balm to the wound that is my heart right now.  I am taking life slow as I heal and pick up the pieces of my heart to put it back together in a bigger puzzle with more lessons learned and love to feel and give. So now as I take a deep breath I feel the pain and still get up and keep moving forward to live my life as bravely as I can with an open heart and an open mind to new ideas and new people that will share with me their wisdom and version of how they see the world.  So Carpe Diem!!  Take a chance on love!!  Don't hold back on those that want you, touch them and tell them you love them even if it scares you to death....take that step and be brave.  It just might be the love you have been looking for all your life and be the most beautiful experience you have ever had.  Risk everything for this expression of unconditional love.....Good luck and may the cupid send you arrows that are true and land on the perfect match!!

Blessings,
AnnKathleen