 I started learning and reading the Tarot when I was in my 20's, now 30 years ago. When did the time slip away! I remember the first time I picked up a deck, shuffled the cards and felt the potential within to contain the answers I was seeking. The deck was the Aquarian Tarot, which was so very appropriate for my future understanding of wide angle and yet zoomed in perspective.
Exploring this tool and the mysteries it seemed to hold were the first steps in a long journey of understanding myself, my experiences and more than these an even deeper desire to understand others. In the beginning it was an ignominious and confounding process where I felt that I was accessing something way beyond my humble humanness, connecting to something greater and more wise than myself. The cards meanings were veiled and my understanding of what was being conveyed a mystery. The idea that something outside of us being more wise or having all the answers is the ironic falsehood. That we look at a tool or a belief and give it the power to decide what is true and what is not for us is just part of the experience of the matrix, the illusory web of the fourth density or third dimension. It was many years later that I understood that the truth was that I was accessing information that was held within the many different versions of myself and that these versions were the voices from the other side! IS there another side or is it all one I asked myself? I now know that everything is and always will be together in a unified field and therefore never separate. But how we experience this physical and visceral life version of ourselves must be convincing enough to override our higher selves and therefore the knowledge that we are all part of a unified energy field, a quantum realm. We need to feel limited, separate and small, to engage truthfully in the experiences here that are so contrasting so we come into physicality to contain the energy that is our unique signature of Source. Then the light and dark, evil and good, well and ill are felt through the physical being created for us to inhabit. Then duality that is present here within the illusion/matrix of this place, dimension, density is felt acutely through this experience of aliveness in a human body. Everything is a cycle here, the seasons are such a beautiful way to illustrate what is true about this dimension. The Summer gives way to Fall which slips into Winter then is woken up in Spring for a new experience. Much like a new breath, when we focus on taking in oxygen slowly and exhale out, this is a new moment, a new season, a new version of ourselves. The body is the timeline, it dictates when we need sleep and therefore a reset of the experience, it needs food so we again are immersed in an experience of sensation of taste and texture. Then we feel the wind in our hair and smell the ocean breeze while birds fly overhead. We are part of this beautiful world! The bodily senses are how we feel and understand the relationship between energy and physicality which allows us to discern the very truth that we are a part of everything and never separate from anything even each other. If everyone truly could understand this we would see ourselves across the table in a different skin, speaking another language, feeling different feelings but understand this is also us. It is the concept of 'other' that creates feelings of dissonance, fear and hate ultimately creating the need to eradicate the 'other' to find relief and justification for our belief that is different from another. And for some it is the idea of having power which will keep them safe in the limited perspective that resources are finite and competition is the only way to ensure their safety. That money and strategic control over the experiences of the many will allow them more of everything that they are so afraid to lose or not have in this limited reality. Where as the truth is we are never limited. We have access to everything within the Universe, power to solve all of our problems and to have not only enough for everyone but more than enough! We limit ourselves by our beliefs, giving over our sovereignty to an idea, a belief or a reality that seems plausible to our finite experiences in the physical. But when we access the quantumness of our being, the realm of the gods, the energetic center of our being we can bring this into the physical experience and therefore create a sense of heavenly paradise within which leads us truly on a path of ultimate alignment and seemingly outrageous fortune. The Tarot is one way to begin to understand this truth. The way the cards are accessed are the journey towards our own truth within. And to say we are all one and yet not different or unique is to not fully understand the complexity of the Ultimate Creative Force that created this Universe. Although this Creative Force does not attach to emotions like we do in this dimension it is not unaware of the ebb and flow of them from peace to anger from desire to repulsion and from hate to empathy and back again. These emotions are a way to track what we have experienced otherwise we would be just programmed computers and not complex organic, sentient beings. When we hear the truth or a version of it we say it resonates. This to me feels like chills or sudden waves of relaxation, of ahhhh yes! When I feel like I am not supposed to do something I get a feeling of tripping on my own inner feet, like a sudden push from an unknown source. This is simply misalignment. The energy or flow of energy within me suddenly gets stopped and the abruptness of the stop is enough to feel like I tripped internally. But this awareness took years to acquire! So many times not listening and moving ahead anyway resulted in an experience which was not anticipated or wanted. And this was simply because it was out of alignment with the truth. So how does the Tarot accomplish this truth telling in a way that we can understand? The original decks were simply beautifully hand painted cards used for a gambling game played by the elite in Italy around the 15th century. The Duke of Milan, Filippo Maria Visconti commissioned the renowned gothic painter Michelino da Besozzo on the instruction of his personal secretary, Marziano da Tortono, who was a humanist and an astrologer. The themes of the fifth suit, the trump suit, also referred to later as the Major Arcana, were from Roman mythology, such as Strength, Judgement, Magician and the Fool. The 15th century was a dangerous time to be an astrologer and a humanist which believed in the power of the human individual and through exploring the movement of the stars the energies that were released, not the power of the church and its beliefs in a central god that was seeking retribution through the vehicle of the Vaticans various inquisitions for any individual that had a unique thought. Many at this time in history were being horribly killed; beheaded, burnt at the stake, drawn and quartered, in the name of heresy which was determined by the Catholic Church and its power hungry and dare I say demonic servants or those seeking experiences of inharmony. So creating a fifth deck based on Roman Mythology was a dangerous prospect and yet created the pathway for future divination in the 17th century. The Tarot became a divination tool around the 17th century as a way for us to peer through the veil of contrast, the matrix, so we can know something true about ourselves and our higher consciousness. I believe it tunes into our current vibration and beliefs which emanate through our physical energy. Then course corrects the invalid illusion so we can for a moment know the simple truth that we can create a pathway using our god-self, Source spark within. This spark of Universal Source is the way to create all we desire, and all we can envision for ourselves. And creating alignment within ourselves is a gift to the world of contrast, the breaking through the matrix itself. It is not necessary to convince others of what is true, only that we see this for ourselves. We can offer our unique pathway to others like offering binoculars to see far away, or continue to be a light within the darkness of illusion but this is really all we can do. The contrast in the world is the experiences of the many versions of Source experiencing itself in a safe environment where truth is subjective steeped in contrast and based on individual perspective which excludes all other perspectives. It can be played out in ways that do not ruin or change our unique spirit selves or the original spark of Source that lies within each of us. BUT when we realize that we are part of the whole complex web of the Universe and can create in unity with this we align with a power that creates everything! This is the power of our Higher Consciousness in full collaboration with our physical aliveness. So the next time you need some guidance with a problem, circumstance or situation, consider a Tarot Reading and/or learning more about this amazing tool. This is ultimately one of the ways I connect people to their true selves, their higher consciousness, in a way that transcends this limited reality of physicality. And when people experience this truth once, even if they forget and get immersed into the matrix again it becomes easier and easier to peal back the layers of illusion in the future. Be patient with yourself as you consider how to create a way forward that is in alignment with your true self and create the experiences you truly want to experience. Everything is possible when we are pulling on the beautiful scarf of heaven and revealing the light and balance in harmony. Blessings, Annapurna Devi
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9/13/2025 0 Comments Transforming our lives Good Morning Sunshine!
I heard this once from someone and in that moment my life changed. Being someones sunshine felt so important and recognizable like everyone from that point on could see that in me. The biggest problem I have ever faced was not being able to see this in myself. I have been searching for that high ever since because it was outside of myself and so was subject to being removed or disappearing all together if that person was no longer in my life. This has always been my struggle. I grew up in a family that argued and fought with no emotional accountability, with one parent who had out of control explosive anger issues and the other emotionally shut down with no visible empathy. And while physical violence was never actualized I was always afraid that one day I would feel the pain of that anger. Often the big family battles did not include me, as I was the youngest, so I was ignored and paralyzed with fear sitting in the corner. There were other battles between myself and my only sibling and I had to defend myself throwing hatred and venomous words back to where they had came from. I tried to self soothe by sucking my thumb far into elementary school and was made fun of by my brother and others because it had affected my front teeth. I felt unloved, unseen and broken. I was often sick with respiratory illnesses and sore throats. Life felt like one hurdle after another to traverse. Pain, confusion and fear reigned. I began to see and feel that things just did not work out for me. For reasons unknown to me at the time I was unable to experience understanding, love and acceptance from others. Eventually I began to figure out that I was not accepting myself on the inside and until I did I would not attract what I truly wanted and deserved. I was very pretty when I was in my 20's. After the braces came off and the hormones kicked in I was seen and desired physically and for a time this was how I connected with others. I felt that my outside was the way to acquire what I so longed to receive, love and belonging. I never felt like I belonged to the family I was born into, I felt like I was an outsider from some other nice family who loved and appreciated me. I was 'too sensitive' in my family which ironically I learned years later actually meant I was emotionally in tact and feeling all the dysfunction from my father, mother and how that affected and formed my brother's lack of emotional awareness or ability to connect. It may sound like my family is awful and horrible. My parents were not actually unloving, the truth is also that we had moments of joy at holidays and the two week vacations to Yosemite every summer, but all the while the yelling and the bullying and the ignoring was still present if not in those moments in the emotional memory and therefore my body. No one knew of or understood emotional regulation or how to connect with empathy and awareness of how another may feel regardless of how they were feeling. It was a place where love was not talked about we were just supposed to know how everyone felt and yet the actions did not often match the pronounced love. Life has been very confusing and dangerous for me for many years. How I felt about myself is what attracted the friends I had, the relationships as well but when I had my son my heart broke open wide and I felt something I had never felt before. PURPOSE. This new life needed me to be my best version and I did by best! I made many mistakes and had so many missteps and eventually felt I failed at this most important task of my life. I was angry, heart broken and eventually I attained the very sense of belonging I had missed being in my family, a deep sense of apathy that mirrored their own emotional range. I am not sure what hurts more, apathy or feeling too much pain. They are both different in their corrosion. Apathy while it is the acceptance of something it also is the lack of hope to recover from or change it. And feeling too much is just the familiar sense of overwhelm, sadness and a constant state of grief and feeling alone. I will tell you neither is optimal! So how did I create something different. Well, I will let you know when I do! (insert laughing emogi) I have learned actually that telling the truth is the way through our state of emotional recovery from what ever has encouraged the decision to feel apathy or too much all at once. It takes strength to admit when you have done something wrong and hurt another. So when I learned I was culpable for some of my son's pain growing up I was devastated. Feeling deep compassion for him was how I was able hear his words of truth of his experience. And then it took me volumes of compassion for myself to understand why everything happened the way it did. Eventually I circled back to my childhood and the damage from my parents generation who were not taught to connect emotionally but through day to day tasks and taking care of the basic needs of a human while leaving the rest to chance or a religious perspective which blamed the very person for their own pain. Not the best approach but here I am alive and learning to be well! Looking deeply at my experience I finally grieved for the little girl inside who was so scared and also hated her very existence because of a sibling who emotionally bullied her. I was called 'stupid Ann' for years and this was never corrected by my parents. And so that phrase has circled my head for my entire life. I wanted to be accepted, loved and seen by my sibling and never have been. The narrative has never changed and if perhaps he feels differently now the words have never been spoken. In fact I really don't have much of a relationship with him at all. I hear other people in conversations talking about how they get together with their siblings for dinner or just talk on the phone. I don't have this and actually have always felt like an only child. All of these distances within the framework of emotional connection has been hard for me and made me ill equipped to raise a child with the right parental tools. I did my best with my skills learned through my 20's. Meditation was a cornerstone, massage school helped me to understand how emotional trauma stays in the body unless we release it. All these things made me more equipped than my own parents but not knowing how to traverse the emotional minefield of my childhood I was always going to fall short. So what now you ask? How does this story end or progress? I feel a sense of relief from admitting these things, from seeing how it all played out and how it wasn't my fault but an unfortunate upbringing where a narrative was drilled into me about how 'normal' we were and how dysfunctional everyone else was. This was the story my mother told us, as well as to never talk about our families issues to anyone lest they think less of us. I never honored this horrible request and because I have talked about these things it has allowed me to air out and release the residual emotions of sadness and anger. Life is too short to not admit what happened and to allow the truth to come out of how it affected you, to see what was wrong and to admit those things that shaped you as a person. As we do this we also release the people who did their best with the knowledge they had and to see how limited they were in the tools they had to be emotionally regulated and connected humans. So now that we know how to do better, lets be vulnerable, honest, forgive ourselves for the thoughts that created pain and suffering and replace them with love and compassion and above all gratitude for making it through the muck and mire of ridicule, yelling, fear, self sabotage and self hatred. Bringing light to all that is shadow so that the air of wisdom and the light of love can enter and transform our inner world to shine bright and new and allow new and happier experiences to thrive in our lives!! I hope this story of my life will allow others to be radically honest about their own and create new pathways of healing to enter. So many blessings, Annapurna Devi 8/13/2025 0 Comments Finding our way to the beauty! Do you find the current experiences here on Earth troubling? Are your challenges appearing to be more and more intense to the point of exhaustion? Are the good moments too fleeting or not enough to offset the difficulties surrounding you? These are the questions that I find I ask my clients more and more and increasing in frequency. The world seems to be less and less beautiful if you focus on the news unless you really dig in the dusty places that are not sought after often. The spotlight seems to be on the unfair, dark, destructive and down right sad. Everywhere you look within this Earth's sphere is a place of loss, depression and hardship. It is getting harder and harder to find good in the world! But it is out there. I promise if you look hard enough and long enough you will find beauty and love and help! It seems as if darkness is having its way with everything we love and cherish. But I tell you, look up, look up into the stars and know that you are made of stardust. The very particles that make up stars are found within the human body. You are a miracle of creation and in that knowledge is power. The power to see with new eyes. When we trust in our own power and connect to our Higher Consciousness we remember that we can make a difference, create ease, bring laughter and soothe sadness. Humans have an uncanny way of finding solutions to all the problems that exist in this World and possibly other worlds as well. We have the ingenuity, the tenacity and the creativity to become a catalyst for positivity! Do not loose hope instead turn your attention to that which is already working and beautiful. This for me usually means a trip outside into my garden and digging in some dirt, tending my plants or even reviving the earth to produce more vegetables or flowers or just breathing in the natural world that thrives when we give it the least amount of attention. The miracle of a flower tiny, colorful or intricate in construction will always thrill me! The wind blowing gently through my Hollyhocks and the white butterflies flying from flower to flower tells me that there are many parts of the world that still have a gentle rhythm and can become a beacon for all of us to follow. The bees and bumblebees always get up and go out to search for nectar and spread pollen, it is their purpose. What is yours? Besides how you make a living. What is your true talent? What human connection can you make with your talents? How can you become a catalyst for good? What is something you can do to present the world with love, beauty and kindness? Sometimes we just have to keep moving forward and trust that everything is happening for a reason and yet still strive to ease and create the best version of ourselves that is still connected to Source bringing this powerful force of goodness, kindness and beauty to our world. The more we ask for assistance from Spirit in co-creating more ease, more beauty and ultimately a place of allowing everyone to shine will bring it closer to us. Ask, ask, ask! When we pray for better or meditate on better and see the better it has no choice but to appear. I for one will continue to pray, meditate and create a pathway within myself for this light to appear and share it with others.
May all beings be happy.' May all beings be at peace. May all beings be kind. Many many blessings to everyone today and everyday! Annapurna Devi  "A smooth sea never makes a skilled sailor." an African Proverb was quoted by President Franklin D. Roosevelt during the challenges he faced during the 1930's. He became president in 1933 four years after the infamous financial catastrophe and subsequent financial crisis created by Wall Street taking a swan dive on October 28th 1929. He and his administration orchestrated a set of programs and projects aimed at creating more jobs and solutions to a country full of problems called the New Deal. This was the kind of can do attitude he was famous for even when he was paralyzed from the waist down after contracting polio in 1921. But here is where I say that every difficulty is relative to each and every person. Many of us will not relate to the same ideas or inspirations that formed the person that was Franklin D. Roosevelt. And even though it is inspiring to know that these people have been in our past and have done great things we must find our own way through our challenges and find our own New Deal solutions no matter how insignificant our problems may seem. To us they are significant and need our attention and compassion.
But all too often our process is to look at famous people and their success and either feel inspired to do the exact same thing or defeated by what they have done thinking we can never do what they have done. The path inspiration creates may yield some success with someone else's ideas but at some point we need to make changes and adjustments until it begins to become our own version of that idea. If however we continue to ignore our own impulses and doggedly do the exact same thing we will not succeed simply because we are different from the person we took the idea from in the first place. This is often the hardest lesson because when we compare ourselves to other successful people and see ourselves as failures if it does not look exactly like the other person's version we can feel defeated This is where I take to heart the words of Tama Kieves the author of Inspired and Unstoppable a book about creating success in finding solutions for ourselves in the midst of so many experts and professionals telling us how, where and what to do. She says "Ignore the changing reality of statistics and chase awakening joy. Cherish your own signals and trajectory. Why listen to an 'expert' instead of a genius? Oh you want to do it 'right'. Well, I'm shooting higher. I want you to be the cat who swallows the moon." Even in her funny quirky way she is granting us permission to just be ourselves! Simply put so many people do what they are told by an authority or expert even if it feels completely foreign to them. We have become a society that only values other people's advice instead of our own. We ask our parents or our friends or spouses or priests or therapists or the bar tender of our local watering hole. Anyone but our inner selves! When we do this we might have limited or no success because ultimately it was not based on our own specific needs and it was based on someone else's ideas. So what do we do with all the professional, expert and familial advice being given? We listen and then check in with our inner selves, our gut, to see if it 'resonates'. What exactly does that mean? For me it is a resounding sense of aha! or sometimes a quiet relief of yes that feels good. It will be different for you as you are not me. So begin to connect the dots of when you felt and went with your gut and it turned out well for you. Think back into your past and remember what it felt like to connect with your inner barometer. Sometimes this has not happened since we were little but we remember a specific time when we recognized the feeling of 'rightness' about how we were feeling. That 'rightness' is our guide and the light shining for us to follow and seek the solutions that we can create! The more you do this the more you will become familiar with the process and relate more to your inner self rather than the outer so called experts or family know-it-all's. This is not to say that we will be successful every time we set out to do something! It means we will have more success in finding the right stepping stones across the river of challenges. It means that when we listen to the voice or gut feeling and move towards what it is telling us we will find our way and success will find us. And especially if someone tells you that you will never be successful with how you want to do something I would remind them that the light bulb was invented and we also landed on the moon. And back when these ideas were new they seemed not only silly to most 'experts' at the time but most people laughed and said it could never be done. So what would happen if every person with a unique idea stopped because someone said 'That is a dumb idea, it will never work!'? We would be so much less advanced than we are today, thankfully all those people did not take the advice of a naysayer! And for you my dear friend, what challenges you at this moment? And listening to your inner self what do you think you should do? I find with my clients they always know the solution but often doubt it's veracity. But with encouragement and listening I seem to always help them see that the idea that came to them is probably going to be the best one yet! And it usually is. If you don't believe me I have a few people who will talk to you about the truth that they found inside just waiting to chat with them and how it helped them find the light and the path that fit them perfectly. It really isn't about perfection or success the way anyone else does it, it is about what success looks like to you and how if feels. If you want to do something quiet, meaningful and one on one vs. having a million followers then do that! If you want to shout it from the roof tops and speak to a room filled with thousands of people, do it! And if you are not sure how, just close your eyes and wait for your Spirit to show you, tell you, bump you into the right person or send you an unknown caller that just might be the person you need to speak to that has the answer you are seeking. Obviously listening to what worked for other people can be helpful if you listen and see how it feels. If someone's way does not feel right for you listen to someone else and ultimately you will find your way perhaps using pieces of a few peoples ideas. In very simple words, create your own thing! Not everybody likes to make the exact same chocolate cake just look it up on youtube and you will find a million versions of chocolate cake. Find you own version of the cake that fits you perfectly. Maybe yours has cayenne in it or coffee? Anyway you slice it make sure it is your own version and to your liking! And just know that I believe in you and see your challenges fading like a great sunset at the end of a beautiful day. And as always I am here for you no matter what so if you need a leg up on that horse, I am here to stand with you as you launch onto that saddle! Blessings, Annapurna Devi Awakening to Harmony  My mind is drawn back to a time over 20 years ago when I lived in Bucks County, Pennsylvania. The years where I was becoming aware of a hidden world just next to ours and that seeing with my physical eyes was only part of the scene set as this 3rd dimensional reality. This journey of understanding started with watching and listening to the forest area that was at the end of the backyard where I lived. This area is and was home to so many beautiful physical and hidden worlds. This was the beginning of understanding that there is so much more to know besides what we see and feel with our 5 senses. It seems surreal to be here now in this moment, watching the grey squirrels busily hiding nuts in the grass taking a moment to perk up their heads and listen to the sounds of the wind through the creaking trees as they move adjusting to the cold. I am struck by the beauty of this area and the colors the leaves provide every Fall. This is a magical place! The elemental and faye energies are strong here with all the brush, trees and winding roads. It was hardly difficult to connect then or now! Just reaching out energetically I find myself seeing and feeling the realities of these natural energies thriving in the wild parts of this countryside. Even though there is so much growth and change since I was here last they are still strong and vibrant albeit a bit quieter now. The natural world is watching as the animals are collecting their food for the winter and the humans tarry forth to the grocery store and reside in their modern world along side this magical and natural place. Side by side the worlds live sometimes interacting sometimes not even aware of the others presence. I am now aware that I am a bridge for these worlds. And we need many more bridges to survive to the next level of dimensional shift! The shift that will allow us to know these worlds and many more from a higher vibrational place. These dimensions will reveal themselves when we have attained the consciousness and compassion to listen to our higher selves and not the mind/ego. Bridges are those people who see and feel the wonder of a natural place beyond what they physically see and feel. The energy just behind the beauty of a place is where the inner connection to the other dimensional realities exist. Many poets and naturalists recognized this phenomena, Hafiz, Rumi, Robert Louis Stevenson, Dr. Edward Bach, Alfred Lord Tennyson, Emily Dickenson, Mary Oliver, John O' Donohue and my own father James G. Piatt. These writers and mystics captured so much of the feeling life of a beautiful natural place. Reading my fathers poems always takes me right to my mother's herb garden or his vegetable gardens from past years that were thriving with happy plants. And also to those wild natural places where we took hikes. These wild places is where the veil is most thin between our physical created modern world and the hidden realms of other dimensions. Why the other dimensions are so strongly felt in these places I am not sure. I think it is possibly because we are absorbed into the quiet of a place and relax and breathe deeply into the peace that exists there. My son is sure this is where he feels a sense of 'church'. The majestic and mystic come together in a reality of Divine proportions. I am so grateful to see and feel the beauty of this area again and understand the direction my life took that has increased my understanding of the power and gift of natural places! If you resonate with these words and find yourself nodding in agreement reflecting on your own personal experience with the natural places that you have resonated with I encourage you to explore becoming a bridge to help in our evolution and ascension into higher realms. Seeing through the veil the holographic nature of modern society with all it's interesting experiences of contrast that we engage in to learn something about our true nature is truly a phenomenal experience! Becoming a bridge means we talk about the experiences we have in the natural world that are beyond this 3rd dimensional reality we call our day to day world. Continuing to strive to experience and create peace and solutions within the paradigm of contrast is the goal of a bridge. Feeling compassion and reaching out to each other in a way that is respectful with a feeling that all experience is valuable regardless of the judgement of an experience as less than or more than another breaks the illusion of 3rd dimension. Success is not measured by the acquisition of things or amassing forms of monetary means! I am talking about finding a place within that connects with a higher purpose and feeling of Spirit. The Spirit which resides in all and everywhere at the same time is not concerned with our illusions of duality. We are not separate from but a part of this great energy that continually creates the ever expanding Universe. We are part of a cosmic family not just this planet Earth. We are related to a greater family that is ready and willing to connect with us and assist us in moving forward to the next dimension to join them and return to our Divine selves. So many avatars have tried to speak to this truth in a variety of ways but in our pre-programed narratives, where we forget who we are in order to experience a convincing experience here in the 3rd dimension, we created religious narratives that instilled contrast and duality. The perpetuation of these narratives keep us from moving forward into a new reality that transcends this one and creates a bridge to other realities in higher dimensions. If we spend time quietly in nature or in a space we create in our homes that speaks directly to our inner selves we will eventually remember this is all just illusion, just an experience with a personality we chose like a video game character we create. We go through this illusion with challenges and 'bosses' to get to the next level. How we see this experience is up to us, how we choose to play the game is up to us! Do we lose sometimes for a certain experience or do we chose to win? Both are valuable in differing ways. And nothing is wasted or less than another. Pain, suffering is all valuable albeit a hard route to choose. And we can also choose a different path everyday or even every minute. The narrative is ours to play with and change at will. The challenge then is remembering that we control the narrative that we are not at the mercy of anything outside of us. The illusion is strong though and it takes time to override this system and connect to our original Divine operating system. But this is the opportunity we have in front of us! To remember who we are, connected to everything and everyone. Not as lowly human beings but as beautiful Divine beings having a human and 3rd dimensional experience. How beautiful this illusion is and playing joyfully within it can be our everyday experience!! How do you want to play out the rest of your game? If you feel called to learn how to be a true bridge and Guide for others check out my Guide in Training Program! It will change your life and the lives of others that you touch. And we need you! I am honored to accept people from all walks of life and realities. The richness and uniqueness you present here and now is perfect for the work of bridging this 3 dimensional reality to the 5th dimension and on up. Join me in this adventure and life work! Fill out the contact form at the bottom for more information. So much joy to all of you and I empower you to relate to yourself as a Divine being instead of a lost or broken human. The latter is just your life character and not who you are but a role you are playing. Show up as your true self and see the game change! To you and all your realities how ever you choose to see them! Annapurna Devi Awakening to Harmony  Charlie Brown is physically shaking as the little red haired girl gives him a kiss. Does she love him? Or does she feel sorry for him? And how does he feel about receiving the kiss? I don't know if he even knows especially with this Mercury Retrograde how would anyone know?! And with Mercury in retrograde in Aquarius, which is an air sign vs. the past years retrogrades in water signs, we will feel even more at a loss of what to think about well, everything. But do not despair, unexpected moments of bliss and synchronicity will emerge if we let go and allow the energy to flow around and through us without expectation and flexibility. And flexibility is the most important element here! Bend like the reed, not the oak or the evergreen trees that sometimes break during storms. Now is the time to be that plant that while grounded in the earth will be flexible enough to sway with the winds of change. And the winds are blowing all around us with change. We have a new Presidential administration that is actually doing something and a virus that is mutating as we speak to keep the pandemic alive, not to mention the personal issues that arise as well as all the issues in our society that have not really improved or changed yet.
So take a breath and realize that everything is changing quietly whether we take notice or not. Change is the one constant we can rely on. And during a Mercury Retrograde everything kind of slows down, appointments are delayed, phones and computers glitch out or shut down for awhile, travel plans change according to flight cancelations and our own personal communications break down. But don't we all need a break? So allow this moment, these 3 weeks, to slow you down. You don't have to make any major decisions, it really is not recommended. Do not sign any contracts, start new relationships or make changes in residence or job during this time. So again I say, sit back, take a moment to change your shoes and put on that cardigan sweater with Mr. Rogers and relax while life continues to move forward without you struggling against the tides or winds of change trying to force your will. Let it take you for a ride, keep your focus on flexibility and self care. And watch what can happen when we do nothing. I know this is counter intuitive to most Americans, this non-doing, but if you give it a try I promise the Universe will bring you a gift of exactly what you need. And while this flexibility does not mean we have to do nothing the whole time, we must be mindful of the cues when to take action. This is the subtle key to flexibility. Knowing when to move and when to sit still is the content of this next level course in Earth School. We just moved into a post graduate or Masters course that not everyone will be ready for but sink or swim the planets say. Saturn square Uranus, at this time, says that if we have not been dealing with our internal world by changing ourselves and our patterns of conditioned thinking into a new way, they will be so kind to help us see the light. In other words if you have not applied yourself to this practice of change you might be forced through shocking news to pay attention much like touching an electric fence that is live. We just might be shocked into change if we do not go willingly. Saturn is the revealer of hidden things and Uranus is the electric planet of immediate change through shaking things up. Have I said we must be flexible yet? I feel as if I have, but one can not say it enough, flexibility, flexibility, flexibility. Even though it might look like we are going into the storm without a coat, hat or scarf if we go willingly the Universe will provide us with what we need and we will survive. I have a client that is working on cultivating faith and trust in herself and in the powers that be, also called our Spiritual Staff, Angelic help etc. and I feel that February is all about this theme of faith and trust for all of us. So if you need something, help, clarity, prosperity, health, love or anything else, ask for it, name it and allow the powers that be to help and bring you what you need. We are not alone and need to make sure we cultivate the power of asking, prayer, clear allowing whatever you want to call it, ask for help from your Spiritual Staff! The more you give your life over to co-creation with Spirit the more life will flow and be easeful for you. You see Spirit sees when we are creating from conditioned thinking and if we are lucky they might send it away or create a distraction so we don't keep repeating ourselves. And when we ultimately invite Spirit into our creating they steer us in the right direction. I am not sure what will happen with Charlie Brown but I do know that if he continues to value himself and learn to appreciate his uniqueness he will have a good chance at a happy life with the little red haired girl and she with him. Valentines day will be right in the middle of this Mercury Retrograde so allow a little more patience with yourself and others while cultivating some self love. As you do this the reflection just might emerge in the midst of this unpredictable time. Remember I did say at the beginning that when we let go the Universe will bring us beautiful gifts of synchronicity and bliss even during a Mercury Retrograde so do not despair. This is where we allow our little life boat to be carried by the powerful waters of Spirt and even if it gets a bit choppy we will be safe and taken care of by benevolent beings of light. But it is ultimately up to us whether we surrender or fight the coming waves of change. I for one am going to breathe into the state of allowing. I hope you do too. May the force by with you my friends!! So many blessings to all of you! AnnKathleen / Annapurna Devi Awakening to Harmony * Awakening to Truth Mentoring 12/28/2020 0 Comments 2021 friend or foe? Who knows what this year will bring? My favorite astrology author Tannaz of Forever Conscious has written an amazing piece for the new year siting all the planetary shenanigans affecting the conditions we will find ourselves in during 2021. While all of it is not bad news some of it is reminiscent of last years forecast. And as I look toward an unpredictable future I can always find something positive and uplifting in Tannaz's writings even when the apparent conditions are less than favorable.
For further edification go here to read all about it.... https://foreverconscious.com/intuitive-astrology-forecast-for-2021. Even with the astrological forecasts that we had last year with details about 5 retrograde planets in the beginning of 2020 and the further dire realizations of conjunctions and squares with planets in specific astrological signs did not give us the full picture of the personal and global impact we would endure until we were in the midst of 2020 and Covid-19 became a thing. So with a head full of knowledge about what the planets are going to do this year I find myself with my hands over my head ready to stop, drop and roll into a ball and close my eyes tight awaiting the big explosion that 2021 might bring. Maybe this is a sign of conditioning from previous planetary misalignments since 2018 but seriously how will we know what is coming? The lessons from last year and the previous 4 years plus the theme of not really knowing is still here and being aware that we are unsure is the start of taking back control of the only thing we have control of which is ourselves! So the big question is how are you responding to Covid-19? The inconvenient destruction of this virus has been like so many small children running around shouting with their hands in the air knocking down all of our lovely glass miniatures that comprise modern societies most beloved activities. The very activities which distract us from the overly busy and sometimes unhappy lives we choose to live. Eating out all the time instead of cooking at home, going on vacations in those homes on wheels to get away from our lives, going shopping for fashion culture where buying, buying oh and more buying is creating landfills full to the brim of random things that were once new, that now we buy online and receive packaged with a ton of plastic and/or styrofoam will never take the place of true happiness. And the truth is that the main destruction of the virus is the 1,000,000+ lives lost worldwide, spouses, family members, co-workers, neighbors and friends. In the beginning of 2020 all of our outdoor activities came to a screeching halt as the realization of being out in public was spreading the virus. Medical professionals advised us to stay home as we watched the world get sicker and sicker. Yet there were those that could not deal with being at home for more than a month who started to make up all kinds of political rhetoric to bypass the one reality that we were infecting ourselves when out in public doing what we have always done which is work ourselves to death so that we can go out and spend lots of money trying to buy happiness and be seen by others doing it. Whew! What a glitch the virus presented in our otherwise healthy response to our modern life culture, talk about girl interrupted! And yet some of us responded with creativity, singing on balconies, major home renovations, planting gardens, taking up new hobbies, reading large novels, playing music, writing music, talking with our children, with our spouses, with our friends. NOW we had time to work on that project that we had put off for forever. However, some of us just kept doing the same thing and got sick and spread the virus to other people who got sick and died. Some of us got together and created additional food banks for those who were suffering without jobs. Some of us created prayer groups, some of us meditated for healing, some of us kept going to our essential work to provide full shelves of food to buy, or help those who were sick and pulled double shifts and were isolated from their families. How did you respond to the crisis? This will undoubtedly give you a good idea of how you will handle what ever 2021 will bring. So will the mighty force of nature and the planets bring you some great opportunities for growth? Maybe or maybe not. Only you can choose to make it a good year aligned with the light or succumb to the dark side and become the worst version of yourself so far. The protests of those who want their favorite bar open so they can continue to infect more people with the virus, comes to mind. It is up to you. Which is actually a really great thing if you think about it. You can change! You can approach this year with more compassion and more positivity than ever before. You can become such a force for good that all you see this year is more and more and more positive opportunities in your life and the lives of those you touch. The protestors who safely (masks worn) and courageously protested against police brutality during a pandemic because Black Lives Matter, comes to mind. So when you anxiously read the forecast for this year's astrology or listen to the latest psychic's predictions about 2021 know that you got this! Because you are in control of you, you can be the change for good in your world and you can continue your positive trends from last year to this new year. Because who knows what people will invent or start or see or help to bring about this year. For my own personal growth I will begin by uncurling myself from the fetal position, and move into child's pose, eat more vegetables and less snacks and not watch news that tries to tell me how to feel or the facts as they see them, no I will choose for myself what to focus on and how to interpret what is going on in a way that is inclusive of all people and balanced between instinct and science. I am going to make this a year of wonderful experiences full of promise and enjoyment while I share this with others. What will you do? How will you respond to 2021? I hope you find strength within to move forward with confidence and the will to create a great year for yourself and those around you. Happy New Year, it is gonna be great!! AnnKathleen/Annapurna Devi 9/18/2020 1 Comment Hope in a time of tragedy. I do not often write about politics let alone the 'world' as I am mostly interested in the unseen world as it is a lot easier for me to navigate. It is not difficult to sense negative or dark energies in old buildings or creepy feelings from a place where tragedies have happened for those of us who have a sensitive awareness. Or the beautiful, calm and loving presence of higher beings in beautiful places.. But in the past there have been times where I was unable to sense the diabolical natures of humans, and have assumed someone was really nice to find out they were not really who they said they were. In my line of work I have honed the ability to read body language and the warning signs of extremely dysfunctional people and while I have compassion for them as they are not well, I steer clear of adding them to my inner circle of intimate friends or even working with those I know I can not help.. With this said I have had a foreboding feeling for a long time about President Trump. He is more concerned, I feel, about his own bottom line than remotely helping our country. We are a means to and end for him and those he helps, the 1%, with tax reductions and more loop holes than a crocheted blanket. So when I see the comments and rhetoric regarding police brutality towards our minorities I am not surprised but definitely disturbed by the amount of blatant and uncensored racism in his addressing this systemic issue of our beautiful country and all it's citizens. And when I see the recent ban on app.'s such as Tik Tok and WeChat from the US and the apparent connection Trump has to the top brass of Oracle, Larry Ellison; who according to Kristen Martin, professor of technology ethics at the University of Notre Dame, in an article by NPR is trying to 'save' the app. from this ban, what I see is blatant, albeit hidden participation in a corporate take over of these Chinese owned companies by our President. So once again he is involved with lining his own pockets, conducting personal business acquisitions instead of the business of our nation while our countries people die from a pandemic and people are protesting the deaths of colored people all over the country from a predominantly white and racist conditioned police force.. Just another day in America, just another nail in the coffin of our future, just another day as our natural environment is decimated by the dismantling of years of ecological protections by previous presidents. All I see is the blind ambition of one man for himself and those who contribute to his financial well being and ironically I think to myself this is what our commitment to capitalism has gotten us. This rampant perspective of individual achievement and survival of the fittest, keeping up with the Jones next door and everything pointed at our success by how big our houses are or the cars we drive or the amount of things we posses. We are suffering our own demise from greed and competitive conditioning. We start them young, soccer with Dad's on the sidelines screaming and yelling or football at age 4 where we have them look for the weaker kid to knock down. These are the ways in which we create humans focused not on helping each other but knocking each other down. Instead of fostering cooperation and working together to solve everyones problems, we laugh and make fun of the weakest individuals of our society. So many other countries have had to deal with this particular point in their history where they made choices to stand up for the weakest and took over the powers that be, and not in too nice a way if A Tail of Two Cities teaches us anything. How can we rise up and once more take over our beautiful country and it's diverse rich culture of world citizenry? I say we simply do that, rise up and take over the country, they say we vote with our dollars so stop spending money on random things. Be happy with what you have and if we all came together or the majority of us stopped spending our money on every new gadget that comes out or new television or gaming system. or new car we just might be able to turn the tide of this country through economics. If we just all said I am not buying anything else for a month but food and gas our country would move into a huge crisis. Wall street depends on random spending and we underestimate our ability to control the outcome but the masses are what keeps it going and especially American spending because it is so rampant. Economics is how world wars are waged now, back room world politics are more about making money for a few individuals than about helping any one group with health care, financial assistance, education, clean water or safe roofs overhead.. We are the worker bees that sustain a corrupt and dysfunctional system. We are the ones who can stop this but are we willing to address our own dysfunctional habits of spending and stop. A new system of economics must take the place of consumer based capitalism. We are killing ourselves with money and I am hopeful that if the pandemic taught us anything it is that the simple pleasures are the most fulfilling, Spending time with loved ones, eating a great meal made together. Singing on balconies, learning a new hobby, knitting, crocheting, painting, planting gardens or home renovations. We are so talented but without time to explore it because we were chasing dreams of being better than or more financially successful than the neighbors or even our friends was a race that was sending us to an early grave. How many of us planted gardens this year that had always wanted to but never had the time? How many of us had to ask for help from family or friends or strangers? We are stronger when we come together and consider teaming up, we do not need to divide but unite in a common endeavor of being sustainable again. Being a good force to be reckoned with in the world. Being number one in ecological energy choices. Being the leader in compassionate treatment of all it's citizens not just the white ones but the beautiful diverse and culturally rich ones that make up this amazing country and that makes us Americans. The world sees us as the bullies that we have become but if we begin to turn the tide of this epidemic of consumerism and competition to a more compassionate and emotionally healthy people that can change we could be an amazing force for good in the world. I am hopeful and see just how connected we are with our love for this amazing bright and colorful country that holding that vision for a future of equality and sustainability feels possible! So if you are inclined hold that vision too, America as a place of beauty and compassion for all; that we become known as the helpers of mankind and the builders of dreams and the hope of our beautiful world. People can change and that is what countries are, a large group of people., not a government but people who have shared values and common goals. Coming together to find these is the challenge, and I do think our forefathers were daunted by different challenges and succeeded so I think that we can do the same even if the odds seem against us just look at what a few people did to start this country and with some luck and Divine timing were able to accomplish. So with the same can do attitude and some Divine intervention I believe we can create a new vision of our country. I will hold this vision and I hope you will too.
Blessings, AnnKathleen/Annapurna Devi  Imagine an opportunity that changes how you think and do everything in your life? What an amazing moment that would be bringing expansion and a better viewpoint into our lives! Experiencing a circumstance out of our control that forces us to change would be scary and tremendous! Kind of like the circumstance we are in currently with the Covid-19 virus. And yet what if we fight those circumstances in order to stay the same? To keep the same beliefs and practices without taking them to the next level is to try to hold back a car by pressing on the brake and the accelerator at the same time. The car eventually is smoking and revving and wanting to move forward but fear and inability to trust the way forward makes the situation much worse until the car burns out and dies or the foot slips off the brake and the car runs into something creating a huge catastrophe. I think the fisherman's term is fish or cut bait. Do something, one or the other. I have been thinking about how I spend my days and how they resemble the same routine since I stopped working 40 hours a week at the Natural Foods Store as the Vitamin Department manager 5 years ago. My whole way of living slowed down and I became really depressed at first. The constant go go go of my life came to a stand still, by my choice, but it was the next few months that were the hardest to get through. The waking up early and getting in the car with my lunch and my coffee was gone. The place to be at a certain time was gone. I had the whole day to think about what to do. And there was an enormous amount I could have done but I was hit with this inertia and was paralyzed with the decision making process. So many days I had spent promoting something else outside of myself, so many hours spent working at a job that did not have really any connection to my life besides how I ate and the supplements I knew to take for an optimal physical condition. In other words my spirit and soul were not engaged in my work and yet I did this for years. I realized I had to get to know myself again. I had to find ways to feel positive about who I was and what my interests were. I had already had an intuitive business on the side for over 10 years but never thought I would engage in creating something I could do everyday that would sustain me or keep me interested. But I did it and I love what I do!
I know that many people going through this moment in time having to work more hours until you think you just can't move anymore or sitting at home going out of your mind from boredom or fear of not having enough to pay bills is feeling like more than you can handle but you are handling it. You are doing more than you ever thought you could do. You are finding ways to occupy your time wisely by reading books, meditating, praying, exercising completing house projects and finding meaning in everything you do. We are so much more capable of great things than we ever give ourselves credit for or attempt to do on our own. This time is the great opportunity to change how we are into something better. So when I see people creating moments of blame or division or pouring their own beliefs onto everyone as if we should all follow the way they think I am saddened and feel like sighing after a good long yelling at the top of my lungs. Please look at your inner world not just your outer world to see if it might need adjusting! Blaming is always the easy way out of fear and feeling unsure about things but don't do it, try something else. Try looking at what is causing the fear and deal with it! Just because you feel your belief whether religious or political is the right one for you don't assume we all should feel the same! Try something different! Hold your beliefs softly, gently and offer them with respect not condemnation. There are many paths forward as there are people so do not waste your time trying to convince all of us that your way of thinking is the best, it isn't. It is right for you and perhaps a group of people who think like you but not for everyone. So stop holding everyone hostage with your likes and dislikes, your religious and political beliefs that may or may not be like everyone else's. Be ok with being the only one in the world looking at life with a certain perspective but respect and learn about other ways of thinking. Look at how you can improve your own ideas on life and the beyond by opening your mind, considering someone else's thoughts on the topic. See other ways of doing things, become flexible and bend like the reed in the wind not the oak tree that breaks and loses it's limbs in a storm. When we hold our ideas, beliefs lightly and not grasping and tightfisted we can begin to see that other ideas might fit into our own along side or be absorbed into an amalgamation, a rainbow, a pot of soup with wonderful healthy ingredients! Life is not meant to be the same for everyone, we speak different languages, we have different cultural expressions, we love each other uniquely and deliciously diverse. Why should we all worship the same vision of God in the same way? Why can't we celebrate the diversity that is present in our world? Why can't we begin to learn about and understand the many ways to run a county politically. We do not all have to be the same! But we do need to get along. We do need to have respect and allow the difference to express itself in the unique way that it does. And if we can all see that difference is what makes this world so beautiful and amazing what a place this could be!! If we all had gardens the same way with carrots on the left and zucchini on the right with corn down the middle and not deviate how sad and boring that would be and the very idea seems ludicrous but so many of us do this everyday with each other. Demanding that your God be the only God worshiped in the way in which you worship. Demanding that everyone vote the same way because your way is obviously the only way that is the best. When did we all become so full of ourselves to think we all know what is best not only for ourselves but for the whole world. The audacity simply astounds me at times and saddens me that we have this amazing wonderful garden to play in and everyone has become a bully with being in charge of playing with the ball and we can only abide by your rules. Take a breath. Relax. Let go. If we share our ideas and listen to other ideas. If we celebrate a new cultural tradition it just might become our new favorite for awhile. If we learn a new language and find similarities in our ways we can begin to heal and trust. We are not supposed to be the same. We are supposed to embrace our differences. I am a student of world religion I embrace them all, I have brown hair and brown eyes, my ethnicity is a combination of many european nations and even some first nations, native American. I love freedom and I feel a great need to help humanity and those who are in need so I vote for those people and those bills that assist people.. I love to eat food that has lots of flavor and enjoy ethnic foods of all kinds. Who are you? There is a poem by Rumi called A Great Wagon and the middle verse goes like this: “Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about. Ideas, language, even the phrase “each other” doesn’t make any sense. The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. Don’t go back to sleep. You must ask for what you really want. Don’t go back to sleep. People are going back and forth across the doorsill where the two worlds touch. The door is round and open. Don’t go back to sleep.” Rumi So I ask you, plead really, when you want someone to be like you in all that you believe or understand about the world, please reconsider, allow them the dignity of being who they are and do not feel compelled to change them for your own comfort. See them as a unique human being that is just different from you not someone to change into you. And then embrace the idea that you and they can get along just as you are, just as they are, in all your differences. The world is meant to be enjoyed by all of us in each unique and beautiful way. Enjoy the difference that we all are, it is what God meant to do. The Divine wanted us to experience diversity otherwise we would all already be the same. We are the garden each a different beautiful colorful flower and together we make the world a beautiful place! So much love to all of you may you all have peace and love in your hearts as we traverse this time of immense change and growth!! Annapurna Devi 10/11/2019 0 Comments Times they are a changin'. How does it happen that all of a sudden your kids are no longer kids? I turned around and my James has turned into a man over night and has moved out of state to start a new chapter in his book of life. I swear we were just putting out Halloween decorations and getting ready for our annual Harvest party; some of you remember these events with apple bobbing and pumpkin carving and donuts on a string. This time of year was always spent decorating the house in a spooky style and reading oh so many fun books, John Pig's Halloween, Too Many Pumpkins and the Little Old Lady Who Wasn't Afraid of Anything. I remember helping him make so many costumes. His very 1st was a clown outfit I made out of two different types of taffeta (it was a thing of beauty) then a little ghost, snake charmer, cowboy, wizard(of course) and Link among some of my favorites. It seems the years have been a movie on fast forward. I remember so many many hours spent reading the Harry Potter series not to mention watching the movies the minute they came out! And so many other amazing moments spent in other book worlds with dragons and curses. And when he was really little looking for the fay people in the wooded backyard of an East coast home. This time also included a wonderful Waldorf kindergarten with home baked bread, tons of imaginative play, sweet songs and puppet shows. Fast forward to being a single mom back in California we found a Nature school that was an amazing place for James to explore a different connection to nature through the eyes of two amazing men who were mentors I know James will never forget. And out of that Nature School he grew up with a tribe of boys who are now his closest friends and will always be his family of choosing. Each of them are on a similar journey and yet will always check in with each other as family. Oh so many years of wonderful and exhausting fun! We spent many summers in the water up in Paradise with my dad exploring the never ending supply of rocks. James enjoyed trips to Big Sur with our friends when I had to work. And I remember one great trip to Grass Valley with James that I will never forget or the amazing gelato. We explored local beauty the Yuma river and even the dusty insides of an army surplus/thrift store. We were like explorers together where ever we went!
The past 7 years I have watched my son grow up from boy to boy/man to man and I have seen him struggle, succeed, find a path, go down a rabbit hole and come out again and finally return to the place where he could learn skills from a great friend and mentor, Uncle Heiko. This is a man that taught James to ride a bike and as of late taught James to drive a combine and various other large work vehicles! His time building fences and preparing fields out at the ranch was the perfect metaphor for what he was planting which was seeds for this future which has arrived. He has flown off with strong wings, thrown off the sails and left the safe harbor. I miss him terribly as James is not just my son, he is a confidante not afraid to tell me the truth in that special way only a Sagittarius can; he is a great yard work partner, Marvel movie companion (and I remember getting a call from the movie theatre telling me that his friends needed an adult over 21 to watch Deadpool, and James was 19, so yes I drove down and watched Deadpool with 5 boys!) and Stranger Things would not have been the same without him and laughing at all the memories that came up watching this '80's era show. We even made a foray into Twin Peaks and X-Files for awhile and we will never be the same after enjoying the epic novel Dune and talking about the story line and amazing characters. And now things will be a bit more quiet.....a bit more empty and I am a bit sad. He has become an amazing human and I am really proud of him. He came in with that smile that could melt the strongest iceberg and an imagination that surpassed his favorite toy company Lego which he spent oh so many hours building after birthdays and Christmas's by the fire studying the build manual as he made these huge projects come to life. I know he will take the same care and careful attention to the building of his life. He will always be that little Buddha baby smiling up at me and taking me on adventures with such abandon and joy! Here's to you my James, embrace your life with your beautiful and amazing mind and don't be afraid to get your 'flail' on sometimes just for the sheer fun of enjoying life. You are so loved and your home is always in my heart. And where ever I am is also your home whenever you have need of it! The world is better place because you are in it! And my life would not have even come close to being as wonderful and amazing if you were not in it too. Take such good care of you! So much love, Mom |
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