Today feels like a cup of second day coffee.....you know the flavor is not as bright as that first cup of a new pot of freshly made coffee. Adding creamer to the already slightly creamy coffee of yesterday tastes like it is missing the point of being a cup of coffee......you know just ok...Today is like the faded memories of long ago when things felt vibrant and alive and unpredictable. That fresh first sip of hot beautiful flavor. So what do we do with second day coffee? Well, as I sip on mine I contemplate and sigh feeling glad that there isn't any drama or crazy life stuff showing up. Maybe second day coffee days are good. Maybe they serve us to relax and pause in our contemplations of the inner world where our soul seems to have taken a day off of evolution and intense growth. That could be a really good thing. So why do I feel like today holds no excitement or rush of emotions that draws me in and keeps my Gemini brain occupied? Am I just an emotional junkie waiting for the next fix of deep longing and sadness or the rush of the happiness that roller coaster speeding down the biggest fall before the loop de loop? Sigh.....well today is not the day to figure out such deep things. As my mother used to say she is a "Wednesday kind of gal". She was the Cream of Wheat, happy morning mom who was fully engaged in her day to day life that involved getting the kids to school, then doing her house wife tasks before picking us up from school and schlepping us to various activities. So this second day coffee would suit her just fine. And If I have learned anything from her I would just drink it in peace and not look at it with disdain and dissatisfaction. And I do want to accept the second day coffee for what it is.....a reflection of the now. The soft and uneventful meantime which is the here and now. But my mind takes me to those Himalayan top of the mountain places where my body and heart are on the best kind of high......love and it's all consuming rush of emotion. So here I am wanting to feel the deep affects of that Goo Goo Dolls song Iris "And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they would understand, when everything's meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I am." So maybe the second day coffee is a sign that the train is in the station and everyone has gotten off and is headed in their respective directions as I am standing on the platform of my life while people walk by me with their lives in their brief cases as they stare at their phones or laugh with friends or greet colleagues and I am silent and alone with no one arriving and I am not leaving the station.......just waiting, waiting for something, something that I don't have a clue about. Where is the destination of my life going? And that is not even the question to ask on days like second day coffee days. These are questions for fresh pots of steaming black liquid that when you take that first sip enters your mouth like a burst of the best kind of drug, with that hot and satisfying orgasmic moment that brings you that high of the day as the thoughts rush in and the emotions soar on that moment where perfection is in the flavor of that first sip. Sigh, so that might be tomorrow but not today, Today is a second day coffee day and that's ok. Maybe the day isn't done with me yet and good news and exciting plans will form to give me the hope of a new day that will have fresh coffee written all over it. In the meantime I am present with the quiet and uneventful Thursday that is this moment. The rest of my life is in the unwritten annals of time where the ethers are not done with it yet. And the mental pen in my head is resting on the desk of my mind waiting for new thoughts to arrive and create what is yet to be.
Enjoy your day even if it is a second day coffee day, my friends, there is wisdom in the cup!!
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